When the first sunlight crept through the half opened windows, I woke up. ( So epic )
Looking at the dark sky, I fell into a long river of memories. ( Again, so epic )

'Remember what I told you last year, this year would be a happening year' I still remember what you had told me.
Yes, year 2009 had indeed been a happening year, not an easy one for me, it was also not an easy one for you. I could only say you suffer as much as me, if not worse.
I remember the day where everything started. 04/04/2008. No, the relationship did not start, it was a day where I still had a vivid memory. Though till today, it never started. But from that day till now, I have grown. I have seen you grown too.

579 days. It had been 579 days since the friendship started. I still remember lots of things, but I guess its all history now. Just leave it as our memory forever :D

In this 579 days, I have changed from a guy who would whine over things that I regretted to a guy who would practice optimism whenever, wherever I could.
In the past few months after the incident, I keep asking myself why, why I had quarrel with you. I keep asking myself why. Then I don't know why, something struck me. Suddenly this question keeps flashing in my mind, 'Why am I still asking the question when it had already happen. What had happen had already happen. Why was I still brooding over it. I should ask myself how would it possible for me to mend the situation and not whine over it. Today, I don't dare to say I have let go of everything but I am starting to stop whining and start mending. It's all about optimism.

I remember every time when I got emotional, I would always post things that are pessimistic and you would always message me whether I am alright. I would try to cover up things but you would always sense something wrong in me and I would always get more emotional and in the end, our conversation would always crash down with me apologizing. Thinking back, I feel rather stupid of doing that, to make myself sad and to make you sadder. I am sorry for that. Thanks for trying, really, I really appreciate for the effort that you put in to mend this friendship.

I remember the time where you would call me every night. I miss those times where we enjoyed sweet, sour, bitter, spicy, practically everything. We gossiped ( you gossip more of course :X ), we talked about our problems, you crying whenever things go wrong. I remember the first time when you cried, I told myself that I would not let you cry again, but every time it failed, in the end, you cried 5 times over the months. I felt helpless during the time. I remember you telling me what you would become if I left the school. I couldn't give you an answer that time, but I guess I would be able to give you an answer now. You would still be the same, if not a better Felicia. I have officially left Nan Chiau but I would be back to visit my juniors and you. Promise me you would be a more cheerful girl.

I remember the time when I was that silly to think that status was important to me. I keep trying to force things. I feel really very dumb thinking about it now. But you never flared up though I keep pushing you for an answer, you didn't even avoid me. And that's what I call a good friend. Don't worry, I have changed. To me now, status doesn't really matters anymore. You taught me that it's the heart that matter the most, whether the hearts are interlocked. You taught me that interlocking hands doesn't mean interlocking hearts. Thanks for teaching me this important theory of love. Without that ingredient, Love would not be successful and it would make love ugly. But with that ingredient in, I found out that Love is actually a beautiful phenomenon. Thank You: D

Thanks for being such a wonderful friend
Thanks for giving me a chance to shower you with love
Thanks for teaching me valuable lessons of life
Thanks for letting me understand you more
Thanks for everything

Words can't express much of my gratitude to you.
Though this had once been a failed friendship, I managed to mend it back.
Though scars are still there, I managed to minimize it.
Though it is not the same anymore, I am sure that one day, it would be better than the past.

Remember my favorite saying ' Everything is going to be fine at the end of the day' :D

I love you not only for what you are, but for what I am when I am with you. I love you not only for what you have made of yourself, but for what you are making of me. I love you for the part of me that you bring out. Thanks for giving me the chance to love you once :D Thank You :D

For everything there is a season,
And a time for every matter under heaven:
A time to be born, and a time to die;
A time to plant, and a time to pluck up what is planted;
A time to kill, and a time to heal;
A time to break down, and a time to build up;
A time to weep, and a time to laugh;
A time to mourn, and a time to dance;
A time to throw away stones, and a time to gather stones together;
A time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;
A time to seek, and a time to lose;
A time to keep, and a time to throw away;
A time to tear, and a time to sew;
A time to keep silence, and a time to speak;
A time to love, and a time to hate,
A time for war, and a time for peace.

But there's an exception
A time to forgive, but never a time to forget.
Always in my memory, you have made a big impact in my life :D

Thanks, Felicia Tan :D
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